Rage

It's in this silence that i find my rage
trying to fight all in between the spaces of my mind
wishing it would just shut down
i find you there
rolling around
like a glass marble spinning in my hand
trying to get out of this water
desperate for land
how did you do this to me?
why couldn't i see?
why didn't you just let me be?
alone and uninterrupted
in my pain you came and picked me up
my life you freely disrupted
saying things i haven't heard before
the promised i hope are not corrupted
now deal with all i am
all i can be
you've written a new page
to a book that never ends
i fill it with passion and rage
until i can see the truth
it all depends

Jealousy

I lied.
There are things i will never tell you
I protect you from my fears
i don't want you to think i am jealous
that i am threatened
I withdraw when i know you speak to her
your nickname for her stings
your welcoming acceptance of her affection stabs
the inside mementos between you two run miles inside my head
i can't compete with the time you had together
i don't want to
i get the back seat to her in public
i don't even get acknowledged in her presence
it hurts
it burns
i won't fight
i just vanish and let it go
i have no will to fight
my fighting years are over
my "i love you" is skimmed over
i will never push
it eats at my heart
it's the only one i have
the only one i will die with
i wish you would let go of the past
let go like i did mine
completely and freely
everything erased and discarded
making room for the new
with no past territories to speak of
to think of
no claims and stakes made on my heart
none on my past lovers
none on yours
cut the stings
throw away the pictures of morning afters
move forward without the collection
without the fall back
without the territories you you've marked
i come to the line with nothing in my bag
everyone can see my walls and what i hold for you
i am not ashamed
never would i change my lover to lesser for others around
it's cheap
it hurts
just tell me to leave then
and i will go
jealousy put me here

My Ocean Floor

I want to hide my tainted mind inside your heart. Seek refuge there and build a home. Within loving walls, honest stone, solid wooden doors, i want to live. Understand my life, my ways, the reason behind it all and love me all the more. take me in with all my flaws and fall deeper because of them. Know they will never hurt you, not really. They will fall off eventually, you will see only the perfection that i am to you... allowing me to see the perfection you are to me. Souls connected, forever, with nothing more in their way than the hardships of the flesh. But you know what they are, and you know what they are capable of. So take and eat of my bread for it is my body, and drink of my wine as it is the blood that runs in my veins for you. Always good enough for you, as you are always good enough for me. I will follow you to the ends of the world if you if you swim inside my waters and roll with its waves. I am a contained ocean, with gravity holding me to my earth, to you. You are my footing, my earth under my heavy and watery depths, you are that which most will never see nor know of. Only i can feel you there at the bottom where no one has dared to go and explore. The universe of my ocean floor lies open to you. I will teach you how to swim.

She gonna teach me how to swim

all along the western front
people line up to receive
she got the power in her hand
to shock you like you won't believe
saw her in the amazon
with the voltage running through her skin
standing there with nothing on
she gonna teach me how to swim

i said ooh girl
shock me like an electric eel
baby girl
turn me on with your electric feel
i said ooh girl
shock me like an electric eel
baby girl
turn me on with your electric feel

all along the eastern shore
put your circuits in the sea
this is what the world is for
making electricity
you can feel it in your mind
oh you can do it all the time
plug it in, change the world
you are my electric girl

-MGMT

Home

Things drift in my mind
in and out lucidly
like the ocean tide, serenely
Our wet lips locked permanently
my hands in your hair
your force inside me completely
emotionally
i surrender to the fluid activity
that rocks my body with insanity
heat like a volcano
sweat like nothing i know
to and fro
we flow like tempo
so hard, so deep, the thrust, the blow
take me down like a wild horse
tame it and claim it
take all of it
drive it at full speed on my race coarse
The thing is i can't live without this
it can't be like this
i don't wish this
i need you here to dish this
and make this
your home