questions

She sat there in an empty room and ask him questions. Her heart bruised, yearning to know something of substance, something tangible, real, something she could hold in her mind as truth. Her facial expressions were very real, as if he were right there, as if she could reach out and touch him. She put her soul into it all, her monologue . Probably more emotional then if he were there in person. She let it all out.

" I'm not weak. But i feel as if you see my love as weak, because you fear it so much. You want me forever and yet you run and push me away. Love is not a weakness but a strength. The weak cannot love and the strong will give unconditional love in my study of life. Because i love you, it doesn't mean i am co-dependent, it means you are fortunate enough in this life to have love that most people will never have in their life. People search for unconditional love, they dream of it, even confuse it with lust and fantasy because it is such a rare thing. then why? why do you fear that which is healthy, good and loyal? why do you run towards the cheap and soulless darkness that has gotten you nothing in life thus far. You have had no love before me that lasted, that fought for you, that wanted to build a life with you, that agreed with you, flowed with you like water, easy and natural. why go back to things that are wrong? that have weighed you down? scared the good person that you are and poisoned the way you think about yourself because of your past?  because you walked on the dark side for too long?
You see yourself the way that you have lived your life has no been working out for you. that it has left you frustrated, lonely, and angry filled with self destruction and living in denial. You see that my words, our struggles has challenged you, pushed you to do things you have talked about doing since you were a boy. You see the changes that have taken place because our union was something epic in both our lives. Then why? Why go back to the dark? why go back to the constant shit? Why not let go and move forward to more wonderful things? why won't you let yourself love me? completely? why? what else have you got? work? success? why no do that with someone you love? travel this life with your best friend...know that i will always be there fail or fly. you cannot find anymore excuses, can you? you've reach the end of the rope. love is rare. unconditional love is a fantasy to most people walking this earth.... are you a gambling man?"